This is me probably shouting, no rather whispering into the abyss. I feel restless, uneasy. I want to do something, write something, make something... Is it fear or anxiety that stops me from pursuing what I want to do? Is it some stagefright that has taken ahold of me?
And before you ask, mentally yes I'm good thanks for worrying. I'm just talking about my creative block, or the fact I want to do so many different things that I don't know what to do. To many hobbies I start that I never finish, and words that should have been written.
I comfort myself with believing that there are others feeling the same way. Maybe we need more confidence, but I'm probably to self aware to do something with that. And time is flying, it's autumn again and soon next year I'm hopefully finished with my last education for a while(you should never stop learning). Ten years in uni.education.. was it a waste of time? At least there will be some work waiting for me unless the tides have turned for educators as well.
Maybe I should just try to write what I want to write, I know it's not perfect the first time, and I really do want to finish some of the projects I have started. They just lay there, waiting and calling my name and to be honest I want to just take the leap, but I'm still scared.